My 2009 Christmas gift to me.....

Each year for Christmas since my wife died I give myself something special. It had to be something that no one would know that I wanted or needed and wouldn't cost an arm and a leg to get. Sometimes these gifts would be just a quiet time spent some place I wouldn't normally go to. Other times it was a special book or spending time with a friend I hadn't seen for a while. This year my gift to myself is a very special gift that I've been a little afraid to give to myself. It's a few written notes and letters that my late wife wrote to me at the very beginning of our relationship that she never gave to me. I found them when I was going through her things just after she died. These writings are now over thirty years old and I haven't read them fully. Until this time I just read a few words here and there. I just haven't been able to read those words without feeling like I would explode with my emotions. This is the year I plan to read those words on Christmas Eve.